Joni Mitchell’s song – The Circle Game

I believe in cyclic time. There is not anything new in what we are going through from a big picture of the scheme of things. We have gone through it countless times. What is happening is divine. The present moment is divine. No cribs. It will repeat periodically. I am detached from it. Such detachment defeats fear and thereby reducing negative emotions/energies.

Joni Mitchell’s song The circle game comes closer to this philosophy. You can search for the song on youtube.

Experience: Meditation has direct effect on symptoms

I had internal tremors two years ago when my body was diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease. When I started Qigong exercises of Howard Shifke 20 months back, these tremors stopped completely.

For the last 5-6 months, there has been tendency for internal tremors. But these were not manifested.

I never had external tremors until recently. Two months ago, when I was sitting in meditation, I could feel the physical tremors in my right leg. These tremors were fluctuating with the fluctuating state of my meditation. When my meditation stage was turning to be good, the tremors completely stopped. When the meditation stage was lowering, the tremors were creeping. I could wilfully control my meditation state by more concentration of the mind. Thereby I could control my tremors.

There was no fear because of the external tremors appearing. I could see the impact of quiet mind on the tremors.

After that event of seeing the connection between the mind and tremors, I experienced less of physical tremors. Whenever these appear, I could control them by focusing the mind on a meditation technique.

The meditation technique that I use is: visualising myself as a point being. I am a tiny point of light. I am peaceful, loveful, and blissful being. I use these thoughts with internal focus to experience their form and feelings.

Body consciousness is the root cause of Parkinson’s Disease

The self awareness as a bodily being is body consciousness. Believing, understanding, viewing, sensing and feeling of the self as a bodily being is rooted in our actions based on body consciousness. The scientific understanding of the self is based on the view of the self as bodily being. It includes subjects like physiology, biology, chemistry, physics, neurology, and psychology of the body. 

JWH discusses 4 neurological modes: 1. sympathetic, 2. parasympathetic, 3. sleep and 4. pause. Because people are unfamiliar with body consciousness as  the self awareness, these modes are understood implicitly without any reference to it. Without it, the sympathetic and pause modes are not possible. PD is due to pause mode or its variants.

Alternative to body consciousness is soul consciousness. Here, soul is understood to be an infinitesimal point source of non-physical energy. The awareness of the self as a soul separate from the body is soul consciousness. Besides, soul consciousness also includes the awareness of soul’s qualities/attributes: eternal, peace, bliss, love, dimensionless, and energy source. 

In soul consciousness awareness, the self feels secure, and safe since it has an understanding of its eternity and it being the master of the body which is a  temporary vehicle that its driving.

The author strongly believes that soul consciousness can be used to come out of sympathetic and pause modes. It is all about flipping the awareness of self from body to soul.  

One can practice soul consciousness  for deeper experience of it, in a dedicated meditation session.  

One  can also practice soul consciousness while performing actions. For instance, a practice of soul consciousness can be: I, this soul, am making a deal with this one. I, a soul, am doing business.

A self commentary for making you powerful

Background: You are having conversations with your invisible friend to step out of self induced pause as suggested by JWH approach for Type 1 PD persons.

To make yourself powerful to relieve tensions, worries, and fears, read the following text at least 3 times.

Today, my invisible friend is seeing me as a carefree emperor. He is seeing me  as a unique emperor. There have been many emperors, but he is seeing me as a unique carefree emperor. 

Now the whole world is worried about one thing or another. From the moment they wake up, they have some worry or other about themselves, their family, their business, their friends and relatives etc., whereas  I begin the day by becoming a carefree emperor and I carry out every task as carefree emperor. I sleep comfortably as a carefree emperor. I have a peaceful and blissful sleep. I have become such carefree emperor.  

I gave my responsibilities to my invisible friend and so I became carefree. 

By considering myself responsible, I have worries. The responsibility is my invisible friend’s and I am an instrument server. My invisible friend is the one who gets things done and I am the instrument doing it.  I have this natural awareness at every moment, so I am a constantly carefree emperor. 

If, even by mistake, I take upon myself the burden of any worry or concern, then, instead of a crown, many baskets of worries come on my head. Otherwise, I am a carefree emperor and constantly wearing a crown of light. 

“There is just my invisible friend and I and no third person” – this experience easily makes me into a carefree emperor. 

So, am I the one wearing a crown or the one carrying a basket of worries? There is such a big difference between carrying a basket and wearing a crown. 

My invisible friend comes and relieves me of the many baskets of burdens to make me light. So, a carefree emperor means one who always remains double light, i.e, both physically and mentally light.

Until I become an emperor, my my mind cannot remain under my control. It is only when I become an emperor that I become a conqueror of my mind. 

Benefits of Raja yoga’s view of cyclic time

I want to share how/what I benefitted from the view of Raja yoga(RY) ‘s philosophy of cyclic time. The philosophy is a tool for spiritual growth, personal strength, fearlessness to face situations, and coolness to accept what is happening.

RY views time is cyclic and repeats identically every 5000 years. The world is a stage on which we souls play our roles as per fixed script in a divine drama. Hence the world drama cycle is the term used to refer to the events of the cyclic time.

The fixed script is unknown when it comes to future, and is known when it comes to the past. There is scope for creativity and growth by our actions in the present. Since we don’t know the outcomes of our present actions, we need to be positive, enthusiastic, and with zeal to do better.

The world drama cycle is how the universe is organised both temporally and spatially. It is divine cosmic play. Whatever happens in it is fair and for its own reasons which we do not understand. What happened is good. What is happening is good. What will be happening is also good. This is because the drama is designed that way.

For those, who are used to believing in linear time, evolution, and free will, the above ideas look to be of resignation. But, I find easy surrender and acceptance of what is with gratitude, without imposing my own expectations and control.

When we try to control based on our expectations, and things don’t go in our way, we have negative emotions of fear, anger, frustrations, depressions, hopelessness, dejectedness, etc.

I usually don’t have fears of uncertainties in life due to the faith in the world drama cycle as I believe it to be beneficial. When my faith in the drama wavers, I get into negative thoughts and emotions. Then, I gain my coolness by getting my faith firm in the drama cycle.

When I was first diagnosed with PD in late October, 2018, I immediately thought of its divine gift to me and has a greater purpose, while my neurologist was explaining to my wife that PD is a progressive disease without a cure and is due to certain dopamine producing brain cells decaying. Then, I did not have a question of why PD to me. I immediately accepted the diagnosis. This was due to my faith in the world drama.

I did not know a way out of the predicament of Western medicine in the first 10 days after my PD diagnosis. There were uncertainties of the future. But I did not fear much due to the faith in the world drama.

Later when I found Howard Shifke’s autobiography on how he cured from PD without drugs, I found a way out of the western science view on PD. In the meanwhile, I told myself, PD is not for my soul, but for my body.

I keep thanking the PD symptoms. I tell that these are gifts. Thereby I gain emotional control. PD symptoms are messages that things are not in order spiritually and physically. These signal that I need to work to improve or better my situation.

In February 2020, I started exploring Janice W Hadlock’s research work on PD recovery. I got some new ideas to practice. Though the drama cycle is fixed at some level, our efforts do not cease. What is to unfold is fixed. But we try our best with positive mind to welcome new possibilities. As I practice JWH’s method, I find a newer way of engaging with God, which is by having two way conversation with him. That engagement is making me closer to God. I am discovering new experiences.

I play this part of PD countless times every 5000 years for eternity into past, present, and future. Nothing is new. This is the gist of the world drama cycle that gives me confidence to face uncertainties due to PD because I went through it countless times. In fact, I focus on the current moment than about the uncertainties of the future.

Accepting without the questions of why, what happened and what is happening is a surrender. Thereby I avoid negative emotions. I say, I am grateful to the wonderful drama for whatever it offered, it is offering, and it will be offering. My focus in the present moment is what needs to be done to take things forward.

Three different self awarenesses to converse with God

People may wonder about conversing with God as a commonly known topic and this is not needed to be taken up. Often individuals remember God in their own physical awareness of the self.

JWH assumes the awareness of the physical body as the self. Using this awareness, two way conversation with the invisible friend(God) is engaged.

But we are going to use three specific awarenesses of self to converse with God as per Raja yoga meditation. These are dehi, ashariri, and nirakari. I am using Sanskrit words without introducing English equivalents since I dont have English equivalents for all the three.

As per Raja yoga meditation, self is a soul, a point source of energy, which is non-physical and causes consciousness phenomenon. Based on this idea of the self, we can have the above mentioned awarenesses.

Dehi awareness
Dehi awareness is about having awareness of the self as a point being present in the physical body. In this awareness, there is understanding of point being controlling the physical body. The point being sits closer to the pituitary, pineal, and hypothalamus glands. There is awareness of the self being distinct from the body.

In Dehi awareness, we can converse with the invisible friend, who is the supreme soul, God.

I am the master of this body. I a soul, control my body. I am a child of the invisible God. I say I love you Father. He also sees me as a point being, a soul. He responds, sweet child. We continue our conversation while I am in dehi awareness.

Ashariri awareness
Ashariri awareness is about having awareness of my angelic body, which is also known as subtle body. Angelic body is a form of light that corresponds to physical body. Every organ of the physical body has an angelic version in the angelic body.

I see my angelic body outside my physical body. I a soul sit in the angelic body at the center of the forehead, near angelic pituitary gland. I visualize my angelic body moving far away into the space. There I find my invisible friend. I engage with him in two way conversation.

I will post a separate post on experiencing angelic body using popular rope technique.

Nirakari awareness
Nirakari awareness is about having awareness of the self as a point being outside the physical body. In this awareness, there is only the awareness of the self as a point being. No awareness of physical body or the angelic body.

Nirakari awareness requires more concentration of the mind/intellect on self being a point being.

I see myself as a point being outside the body. I visualise the invisible friend as a point being. And then come into two way conversation with him.

I am yet to explore the differences these awarenesses make in the practice of JWH approach.

Suitability of Rajayoga’s concept of God for stepping out of self induced pause

Persons with Type-I PD have to step out of self induced pause for their recovery using Method-1 described in an earlier blogpost.

The method requires working with an  invisible, trusted and loving friend with whom a patient can laugh and be utterly honest with his secret thoughts. This friend is located outside of oneself.

The nature of friendship is informal, loving, caring, mutual respect, trust and approachability. Like the relationship of two best friends.

For instance, a patient could ask the invisible friend to palpably hold him  or her or manifest as some sort of feeling or sensation either inside or on the periphery of the patient’s body. The expectation is to feel as if the friend is giving physical comfort or gentle stimulation to some part of the body that wanted support  or maybe feel that the same loving energy that is present in the friend that could manifest inside the patient: a feeling inside.

Rajayoga offers such an invisible friend in its concept of God.

There are many different ideas on God. Some are anthropomorphic and some are non-anthropomorphic. Anthropomorphic God has human physical appearance, whereas non-anthopomorphic God has non human physical appearance. Non-anthropomorphic God can be energy, universal / super consciousness, some thing both or universe.

In an earlier blog post, as per Rajayoga, I introduced that my self is a soul which is an infinitesimal point of non-material energy.

Like a soul is a point source of energy, God is also a soul, but the supreme one as per Rajayoga. So God is the supreme soul, which is also an infinitesimal point source of non-material energy that manifests as consciousness. It is conscient being with its own qualities such as peace, love, and bliss.

For a personal relation, it is referred to He/Him. He is abundant with infinite qualities. He has only positive qualities. He does not have negative qualities like anger, pride, etc.

God is incorporeal, and does not take birth as other souls. He lives up above the visible sky.

Our relationship with God is personal. One can experience any relationship with Him and with equality. He can be your mother, father, brother, friend, etc.

Two methods for automatically stepping out of self induced pause

Self induced pause is a   very special situation.The person has commanded himself  to behave as someone he is not. He does not feel pain, or fear, or may be emotion, or   may be his body. He may have created an entirely separate persona.

There are two methods for automatically stepping out of self induced pause.

Both methods are given in one place for comparison purpose.Method-1 avoids blocker personality and is a revolutionary improvement over Method-2, which has obstacles in practice due to Blocker personality. The awareness of Method-2 allows the possibilities to realise and erase scripts of behaviours that cause Self induced pause.


This method is new and taken from JWH’s book Recovery from Parkinson’s. It has two exercises in a sequence.

The person should treat all thoughts and spoken words throughout the day as if they were part  of a silent two-way conversation with a friend: a deceased beloved friend or relative, a “higher power,” some saint or sage, or even a beloved, deceased pet. 

The friend  had to be someone you could laugh with, someone who loved you in an easy-going, honest manner. It could not be a stern  or spiritually ‘superior’ critic.

The thoughts need to become conversation. This chatty duologue would stimulate the striatum, the brain area that exhibits increased activation while thinking of a God with whom you could converse.

This exercise begins when,  in response to the first exercise, the constant communicant began to seem real and trustworthy enough. This sense of a real relationship took some people years to attain.

Once attained, a person could do the second exercise: regularly ask the communicant to feel more physically present.

For example, a patient could ask the invisible friend to palpably hold him or her, or manifest as some sort of feeling or sensation either inside or on the periphery of the patient’s body. The expectation is to feel as  if the friend is giving physical comfort or gentle stimulation to some part of the body that wanted support, or maybe feel that the same loving energy that is present in the friend could manifest inside the patient: a feeling inside.

If a person had some part of the body that was particularly vulnerable or that he really didnt like to be touched by others, he might ask his constant friend to “help me feel your presence” or “… your loving energy” in that body part.

This might stimulate the thalamus, the brain area that exhibits increased activation if your God is something subtly energetic that you can feel or resonate with.


This method is old and taken from JWH’s book Stuck on Pause. It is a 3 step process.

First step:A person has to feel safe. This means not just using positive words, but actually using the part of the brain that is activated when one feels. Safety is a feeling, not a thought.

Second step:A person may have to relearn how to behave biologically correctly in response to fear, anger, or other stresses. He will have to practice this until it becomes second nature.

Third step: The person has destroyed the   instructions he planted in his own mind, commanding himself to behave as  if he feels no pain or fear.